Saturday, January 06, 2007

The anticipation is killing me....


I found myself wishing this month away a few days ago. Work is going to be crazy for the next few weeks, including a trip to Toronto - which is the one small light on the horizon as it will give me a chance, however brief, to catch up with some pals - and I just wanted to fast forward to March, when I could maybe, just maybe take some more time off and get through some more of the many things to be tweaked and finished on the Bunkle. But wishing your life away isn't good. I battle with anticipating, always anticipating...this will be difficult, this is getting worse, and what about that?...and that stresses me out. And busy work means I stop taking care of myself - my back is really bad right now and I know that is because I haven't been to the gym really regularly in ages (and had to shovel some more $#@% snow to boot - what is with this weather?!). Is this what my back will be like forever? A chronic pain in the ... back? Oops, anticipating. And ultimately anticipating gets you nowhere, as things never pan out the way you thought they would, and most (not all) of the time the worries you had were pretty much pointless. And as I know, life can throw fantastic wonders and unseen horrors your way that you had no way of ... anticipating. So I'm trying hard not to anticipate. I'll let you know how it goes.

And in the meantime, I'm trying to keep the needle & thread I brought out at Christmas working. Making little things .... wish I could do it all day. Everyday. Maybe one day.

And because no post is complete without a picture, meet Dharma - a fantastic batty crafty creation that was given to me by A&J this Xmas. On her heart is a little bead labelled "Friend". And ain't that the truth :)

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

oh dharma! you are lovely.

ah anticipation. i see it in my kids and it is so full of hope and happiness. and then in me. well, you know. trying to get some of theirs, a let go of some of mine! xo

Janice Unplugged said...

Must.have.Dharma.

I want that ... doll? Cat?

Sorry the anticipation is getting to ya ... or at least getting to your neck/back. :( Not good.

Take some time. Take some wine. Treat yourself.

BunkleLife said...

She's a Bat, and a proud one!
J2 fear not, I have plans to self-medicate by drinking much wine when I am out in TO next week, fear not..

Janice Unplugged said...

Ah yes ... a bat. I see it now. *still looking*

So cute ... I want one.

Yes, self medication is always good, and when you're out of town, it's like a holiday! Who cares about work! And if you can expense it? Double Whammy!