Yes, that's right.
The Boy and I headed down to my favorite tree lot (ok, a parking lot with trees stacked in it) to pick out another example of the beauty of uncultured trees. It was, of course, the first one we picked up that we ended up stuffing into the car on top of a camo-pattern tarp that made the whole mission feel a lot more military and precise than it actually was.
I do look forward to decorating. It is something I started on year two of life in the Bunkle, and this will be year two of having the Boy assist with carefully placing felt birds on the branches, for which I am grateful. I love the charlie brown tree, the little decorations, the sparkly white lights, the string of pudding carrying cats that make it all feel like Christmas. It will also be the second year Thomas won't be around to
hide under the tree or decapitate unsuspecting wooden reindeer - maybe I shouldn't be surprised at how much I still miss him, but I really do. And though he had been missing from the celebrations at home for a few years now, this will be the first real year without Dad. And without Tui - who is too busy frolicking around Europe to bother with her family *sniff* (There is no thinly veiled jealousy here. None.)
The holiday season is always a weird ying/yang of happy and sad, relaxation and stress, calm and frustration. This year I've decided to try and take a little bit of time off after the holidays, instead of before - which I have come to realize never ends up being relaxing time off, it ends up being thinly veiled chaos. And this year, time off after Christmas will be dedicated to starting the process of transforming the basement in preparation for the Boy's impending addition as a household fixture in the Spring - this will include the creation of a man-cave for his man-stuff, and more useable storage space for the mass of stuff we have both collected. Hopefully I will have the energy to track some of that process on the blog for those that are interested.
In the interim, I will continue to try and keep Christmas what it should be this year. Or rather, what I want it to be.
And I will leave one tiny decapitated reindeer at the bottom of the tree, just in case the ghost of christmas past drops by.